This text is based off a play performed at University College Utrecht.

Tell me when you came here today what were you expecting
No more spoon feeding for you, no more fancy words
You will pay close attention to what I am saying
The choice isn’t yours
 
Please don’t be fooled,
don’t let yourself believe
that you’re the exception to the rule.
 
Why so tense,
loosen your shoulders,
I can see your lips are pursed
It’s in your eyes,
in the grimace on your face
when you sit in my home,
at my table
and look in disgust
while I eat with my hands
 
Pause
 
What did you just say?
A slip of the tongue.
What did you just say?
Don’t be silly,
tell me when you came here today
what were you expecting
 
Pause
 
‎انت الى رح تحدد حياتي كلها و المفروض أشكرك؟
[you’re going to dictate my life and I’m supposed to thank you?]
‎انتو الي بتسمونا ارهابيين بس انتو الي بتخلونا  نموت بالحروب و بالمخيمات ؟
[you call us terrorists but aren’t you the ones who leave us to die in wars and camps?]
‎من شو خايفين؟ مني أنا؟ خافوا من حالكن
[what are you scared of? Scared of me? You should be scared of yourselves]
‎رجّعلي ياه يا إنسان بلا إنسانية
[Give it back to me you human without humanity]
‎بعيونك، هاي بس ورقة، بس إلي، هاي حياتي كلها
[In your eyes this is just a piece of paper, but to me, it’s my whole life]

I seem to have forgotten that my existence
should match your every orientalist dream.
You keep getting distracted,
avoiding your defensiveness?
Did you know?
By definition your defence makes me look like the attacker
An attacker who you can come to with your crocodile tears
 
Rejected
A body undeserving of safety,
signed in red ink,
guilty of sucking it out of my fucking veins
 
‎من شو خايفين؟
I don’t think you’re listening,
I said what are you afraid of?
 
Don’t tell me to tone it down
Your fragility has never been my priority
It’s in your words,
do you hear your pathetic self?
 
‎ما بقا فيني ولله، بدي بس اضهر و دخن سيجارة
‎بس وحدة قبل ما تفجر لي قلبي يا إرهابي
[I cannot take it anymore, I just want to go outside and smoke a cigarette, just one before you explode my heart you terrorist]

Excuse me
 
Your words are invalidating my essence
 
Excuse me
 
Your words are undermining my humanity
 
Excuse me
 
Your words are disregarding my existence
 
You can not liberate me,
not like this,
not with your history
I dare you,
I dare you to play devil’s advocate
 
Assimilate and integrate!
Assimilate and integrate!
Amissilate and ingretade!
A missil ate and in grenade!
 
A missile ate the child alive
and in the grenade we found
your black heart